You can try as hard as you want, but eventually every social predator will realise that we need to stick together. Communal living is all warm and fuzzy, but living together makes our actions and feelings visible to others.

The rat secretly observes the other members of the pack. It’s instincts are saying that gaining the approval of others is beneficial for survival. Make yourself seen when you have something to show, hide when the attention is harmful. That is why it tries to appear as sober as possible whilst being drunk and as self-assured as possible whilst feeling insecure. It is wise to please the watching eye and to control what the pack sees. This is no simple task. Energy is constantly running low. Running low on maintaining power over how one ‘fits in’. Each individual member reflects the pack, and the pack, in turn, reflects the relationships between its members. No new information emerges, the already existing is endlessly recycled, simultaneously creating connections and embedded values within an information vacuum. (In music, this is probably called looping).

You can try as hard as you want, but eventually even the ever reflective plastic-bag-self grows a hole and the empty air flows out. The rat is haunted by the thought of whether their tail would even wiggle without a viewer.

The performance is developed from a work-in-progress performative installation Stalker Dance that was part of SAAL Biennaal 2023 fibre program.